He was the best thing to happen to me. I loved him with all of my heart even when I didn't know I did. I did some things that hurt him...more than I realized at the time. But even then I loved him and felt I was losing him and didn't know what to do or say.
I spent years trying to show him and prove to him that he was number one. It wasn't enough...never enough. Now the pain is more than I can bare. Do I regret loving him so much? NEVER!!!!! He made me happy for so long and gave me more than anyone ever has or ever could . For that I am thankful and will take those blessing to my grave with me. I can truly say that I have loved wholly and completely and have been loved that way in return. Which is more than what a lot of people can say. I only wish that I been smarter and better so thing could have turned out different.